Sometimes the Bible has to tell me so

I'm done with the crap...tomorrow is Monday and it is going to be a beautiful day damnit. I'm a very easy going person, but I am also very dramatic and I have more paranoia than I know what to do with. Frankly, I'm sick of myself right now. I'm a pissy pants girl with a broken sixth sense that always says...yeah they're upset with you...yeah it sounds like that. I never wonder if someones mad at me there is a voice talking to me in a third person saying well of course they're upset with you, you have to have done something. I tell ya, I aint right in the mind. I tried this thing of trying to be like okay if you don't give me respect then I'm not giving you mine...hell that aint right...plus that aint me. I'm not some Hitler....I stand out in a crowd because of how I am. I'm not going to stand out because I walk around thinking I'm a bad ass.. I really don't and I can't pretend that I do. My name is Hannah Dixon and I have rough edges and I have faults, but I do care when I hurt people. I do care about people in general especially my friends that have become like my family. I'm still young in A LOT of ways, but I'm also finding out that I'm not as young as I think I am. I've had a lot of expierences in my life that sholdn't have happened, but they did and I'm actually thankful for them. They are shaping me into a person who I can say that someday I might actually like. I still have so much to figure out about myself. I'm in a battle right now with myself about why am I like I am. I don't understand, but maybe I'm not supposed to right now and I am willing to accept that. I'm pretty sure I know who I am it's the fact of accepting it and living with it. Ya'll know that I've never been one for not thinking into things, so at this point in my life. I'm a dreamer, a lover, totally capable of anything, witty, and young.

Thats all I have to say about that

This weekend I visited my BFF Heather and tiny baybay. I got awesome clothing from wal mart....I'm not going to deny that I love the Miley Cyrus clothing line. I got some blood work done and found out I'm anemic. I lack iron so now I have Flintstone vitamins WITH iron! I'm soooo excited to have Alissa as my little....I don't really know what to do, but hell I won't ever be bored. I went home and ate super bad, but it's okay because I've lost weight in this last week so I'm doing okay. I don't like veggies all that much so I bought tomato juice to drink....we'll see how that goes. This musical needs to be over and the sun needs to start shining like NOW! I want to run and swim!

hoppin' on the health train

I'm gonna blog about my health
I like fried foods so I am doing away with all of it....I had the cave and I ate some fries today for lunch (SUCK) then tonight I had a pop tart and some Ramon noodles (SUCK SUCK).....Today has been my worst day so far, but I am going to get better. I've taken to running in my room. I turn on some hulu and run in place in front of it. Let me tell you, it really works.....when I'm done I'm worn out and the first day I did it my calves hurt so bad afterwards that I could barely walk. After this musical is over I am going to be hardcore about fitness. I love running and I love working up a sweat. I feel like I'm getting something accomplished when I'm out of breath and bright red lol. I lack motivation for anything at this point in time.....fuck it all!

Sonny and Polly

They are plotting against me I swear it! Polly shit everywhere so I threw her in the shower. I stuck her dirty clothes in a bag and put them in the hallway. I was sitting in the bathroom with her....I hear a crash so I come out to find that Sonny had drug Polly's shitty pants all through the house. So I had to scrub the floor and forget about the tash can that he had just dumped over. As soon as I got done with that I hear a crash in the bathroom. Polly had tried to get out of the shower but before that in the time it took me to scrub the floor she had shit in the shower! UGH! So while I was clening that up I was trying to get Polly dressed as well so I could just get her out of the bathroom. I sent her out of the bathrrom while I tried to clean the damn tub. I get done with that and come out and she is playing the in the garbage that the dog had torn out! Once I got all that cleaned up and her hands washed and what not I sat down in the livingroom and she came to get me and Sonny wanted to sit with me and I shut that down real quick but I'm better now and Polly is on my lap

Cabin Fever

I have been stuck in this house for a long time! As soon as Polly leaves today, I am out the door. I don't know where I'm going. I might just go to my grandma's house, but I have got to get the f out of here. It has been non stop snowing for 3 days 3 DAYS! On my back porch it comes up past my knees almost to the middle of my thighs and that was shoveled a day ago. Now granted we do have rather large snow drifts so thats probably why but still.....forget this snow! My car hasn't moved since it has started snowing and there is about 2 and a half feet in top of it......GAH! This might kill me!

I hate winter

I made a pros and cons list

Cons:
Cold
Dry Skin
Wet Soggy pant bottoms
Bad roads
Can't walk outside with wet hair
take 15 minutes to all the extra clothing on
Ice
Snow
Bulky Winter Sweaters
Warming up cars

Pros:
............
I can think about moving to the equater

When it's family

I wanna record this before I forget all the important details.

Last night I went to my aunts and grandma's secret hangout spot lol. All it is is a 3 room trailor on my grandma's land. It has electric and running water. It's in the middle of no where on the back of a barely noticble road. I was invited to go, just me. I went out and had an amazing game night with my Aunt Wilma, Aunt Nita, Grandma Bertie, Aunt Donna <3, and my Aunt Rita. I have never in my life just had time where it was just me and them and it was awesome! That was the first time that they have let anyone besides them come out with them. I'm guessing I get special treatment because they all know I will be supporting them when they get old and even older than they already are. I've promised them all houses and they can retire anywhere they want. They all said that they wanna stay where they're at which I thought was wonderful. My aunts are so vulgar like worse than you, Kayla. My Aunt Donna said hey Hannah your grandma is gonna give her creepy neighbor a blow job and his creepy wife is gonna watch. I was like really? come on! Sometimes I wonder how they aren't in the crazy house but then I remember 3 of them have been. I LOVE MY LIFE!!!!