I'm done with the crap...tomorrow is Monday and it is going to be a beautiful day damnit. I'm a very easy going person, but I am also very dramatic and I have more paranoia than I know what to do with. Frankly, I'm sick of myself right now. I'm a pissy pants girl with a broken sixth sense that always says...yeah they're upset with you...yeah it sounds like that. I never wonder if someones mad at me there is a voice talking to me in a third person saying well of course they're upset with you, you have to have done something. I tell ya, I aint right in the mind. I tried this thing of trying to be like okay if you don't give me respect then I'm not giving you mine...hell that aint right...plus that aint me. I'm not some Hitler....I stand out in a crowd because of how I am. I'm not going to stand out because I walk around thinking I'm a bad ass.. I really don't and I can't pretend that I do. My name is Hannah Dixon and I have rough edges and I have faults, but I do care when I hurt people. I do care about people in general especially my friends that have become like my family. I'm still young in A LOT of ways, but I'm also finding out that I'm not as young as I think I am. I've had a lot of expierences in my life that sholdn't have happened, but they did and I'm actually thankful for them. They are shaping me into a person who I can say that someday I might actually like. I still have so much to figure out about myself. I'm in a battle right now with myself about why am I like I am. I don't understand, but maybe I'm not supposed to right now and I am willing to accept that. I'm pretty sure I know who I am it's the fact of accepting it and living with it. Ya'll know that I've never been one for not thinking into things, so at this point in my life. I'm a dreamer, a lover, totally capable of anything, witty, and young.
Thats all I have to say about that
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