Friday, July 23, 2010

I'm happy...watch me shine!

LONG FREAKIN TIME SINCE I'VE WRITTEN ONE OF THESE BABIES!!!!!!!!
Summer, oh how I love you, but would a little bit of excitement kill ya? I shouldn't be complaining because now I have the money I need to buy ridiculous things on the internet. I am loving this summer despite the fact that I haven't been this boring since I was conceived! I'm actually learning a lot about Polly and how she functions and how sometimes I wish she wouldn't function...(she has teeth like a damn beaver !!!)I currently have 5 bite mark bruises on my arms from her and the thing is is that she does it when she's mad and when she's happy. I can't win. I've been reading about feng shui and I am focusing on finding my center and I've been super happy lately. No, I'm not going to become a Buddhist. I think God would not be happy with me. But, I've really been working on my spirituality as of late. It's like how I see God and how He works in my life. It's a super deep super personal thing for me. I mean it's not like I wouldn't share about it, but it's kinda like my own life line to Him. I think we all have it and it can be found in all different sorts of ways. It's already been decided that when I graduate I'm joining the Peace Corps. I have talked it over with Ma and Dad and they don't really understand, but will support me on my path to change the world. I just need a foot in the door. Just a little opening and I'm going to take up all the space in the room...it's just my nature :) I'm trying to find my focus on what I would like to change. There are so many problems and some are super close to my heart like the abuse of animals, destruction of nature, or the hunger of children. They all fall under different categories, but maybe I could start something in all of them. The main one that has been a fight since the beginning of time is the effort for peace. I've been doing researches on proprietors for peace and they all seem to have one common theme...world peace.....well the world is a big place...Places like Russia don't even know the meaning of the word. I think that I need to start small.... say things like West Virginia peace....then North East peace..the U.S. peace...and so on and so forth. Start small and build up to the ultimate goal. I just have so many ideas and I've started writing them all down. Unlike like past ideas where I try to remember them...it doesn't really work. I even have a few notes scribbled on the back of my Barnes and Noble receipt. I've just been so inspired by life right now that I can't believe that I haven't tried to take some kind of action. My vision will have it's moment in the sun in due time, I do believe......Off to a new subject (sorta) I witnessed one of the most beautiful things in my life. I was taking a walk one day and making a mental image of everything around me and as I was walking I looked down and saw what I thought to be just a pile of bright green leaves. I started to walk over it, but just as I approached it it took off....about a hundred small green butterflies flew up and circled my body. It was almost like a dream. They eventually flew away, but I just stood there while I was being surrounded by these butterflies. It almost felt like Heaven to me. I know I'm sounding a little granola right now, but that's how I find my peace. The simple little things like the beauty of nature are what inspire me to do great things.I'm ready to go back to school, but that means back to reality. I can dig it...bring on life!!!

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