I totally understand why I can never follow out with my plans. 1. it's usually my fault. I get too caught up in what's going on around me. The way that I should see things is that stupid little things that go on should not dictate how I go on about my life and my dreams. I cannot keep sitting around worrying about things like SAI and when should I do this and that and worrying about my failing health. That all can be dealt with later. I am a very determined person, but I also tend to fall of the beaten path because of things like partying and hanging with folks. Yes, social interaction is important, but not as much as I have made it. I just have to focus. Stay with my task at hand. I have to make plans, write them, put them into action. Yes, it sounds simple, but my ideas are going to take years to make a reality. I just gotta get my head wrapped around every detail! Because I am making this my life's work, failure is not an option!!!!